for some reason, firefox has been adding two identical post to every post i added.

it's so hard to concentrate at work...my mind is just drifting. i don't know what's happening but i m just like making up really emotional stories up in my head.


yesterday i was thinking of Amazing Grace...today i made up this story on the MTR and it just kept on going for pretty much the whole morning about superhero family drama. i was actually piecing together a superhero movie in my had

in the first scene i made up, the dad, an established superhero or hero was just walking with his young son around 7-9 on the city street. everything was normal, it was a nice little dad and son stroll around the town. and then the dad saw this disaster (involving a fire in a tall office building or a villain hurting people) and of course, he had to go and help out. but yeah, he had his son with him. but you know, he was a superhero so he was no selfish and told his young boy to stay put. "i will be back real soon. " and kissed his son on the forehead. then the dad went off and changed into the superhero and tried to get the job done ASAP to return to his son. the son watched from afar.

the dad finished the job and did his best to avoid the reporters and polices and returned to the street where he left his son, but he couldn't find him. he searched and searched with no luck. his wife yelled, hit him...

the story starts again with a young man who was around 16-19. In senior of high school or first year of college. his name is sean. he lives at a small two stories house with his mom and younger sister. he misses his dad and his older brother who he grew up with and find guidance in his old grandfather who live quite far from the city in the countryside. he takes a train to his grandpa's place every once in a while to help with projects. his grandpa is a stubborn, independent old man who refused to be housed in a nursery home near the family and argues that he can take care of himself and his property. but he's a gentle man and is a good role model for Sean. Grandpa helps sean deal with his superpowers and tell sean about his late dad and brother.

like spiderman and his uncle, except that grandpa knew about sean's superpower and history of his dad and bro. grandpa told sean that one day he has to take his place as a hero. the world was dying of heros. less and less people were able to standup to evil.

one of the main villain at the time was Steam (stupid name i know, but i can't think of a better one right now.). Steam is actually sean's missing older brother, Joshua, who was kidnapped and raised by a super villain, "crock" (yes another stupid name, but again i can't think of a better one right now). Joshua was somewhat brainwashed and hate his father's guts. he's a confused, angry, lonely, insecure, short tempered young man just a few years older than Sean. Josh's only guidance and depends on Crock for almost everything: emotional support, guidance, shelter. He was raised to hate his real dad.

it wasn't before long that the two brothers along with other villains and heros started to duel it out every now and then.

eventually, sean felt that something was wrong after encountering Josh several times. he saw part of himself in him. he even called up to him. and he found out that Steam is Josh, his long missing older brother. that changed everything. Sean was still involved in battles, but things became increasingly complex for him. he couldn't get himself to hurt Josh and wanted to more and more to approach him. but Steam and Crock and others were just turning the city and the whole place upside down. they had to be stopped and heros were losing the fights. sean's friends were getting hurt, and his fellow heros are falling one by one.

Sean seek for isolated confrontation with Josh and finally got his wish at a industrial plan. at first they gutted it out but eventually, sean was softening up. sean called on Josh and revealed his own identity. Steam told him to shut up and that Volt (their father, another bad superhero name) was not his father. volt forsake him and Crock was good enough to raise him up and make him the powerful person he is. Steam carried a lot of bitterness and anger. Steam went on fighting Sean, but sean wasn't attacking Josh and was only avoiding, blocking the blows of Josh. "hit me!" josh swore at Sean. Sean was telling him memories and their past with him. it was getting to Josh who was getting emotional and didn't know what to do with himself, but he was continuing to attack sean. finally, Crock found out about the confrontation and came with a few others thinking it was a great opportunity to To destroy one of the increasingly powerful superheroes in town. Josh was still having issues. He didn’t want to kill Sean. Despite his hatred and bitterness, and jealousy, he could not bring himself to hurt Sean anymore. He was jealous of Sean yet he also had feeling for him. He remembered Sean. He remembered playing with Sean, of their mother. Sean was pretty drained and worn out by that time and could be defeated even by some of the weaker villains. The other villains were just waiting to get into the fun, especially those who had been defeated many times by Sean. Some of them jumped into the action. They were halted back by Steam and Crock supported Steam as Crock saw Steam as his prodigy. But they were wondering why Steam was hesitating. One of the leading villains, Numbrat (bad name I know) approached Sean offering to finish the job and landed a crushing blow to Sean, Steam/Josh, out of instinct struck Numbrat with a blow that almost killed Numbrat. The villains were somewhat stunned. Villains close to Numbrat wanted to get even. Crock was dumbfounded. He knew that Steam can be out of control at times, but he was getting suspicious, and he questioned Steam. Josh, knowing that he was almost a dead man already, started to laugh at himself. Fight broke out between the villains and Josh, Sean tried to help but was barely able to hold his own, but there was a joy there between the two brothers. Some heroes came and joined in. Josh eventually faced off with Crock and as Crock to land Josh the dead blow, Sean came out of no way and pushed Josh out of the way with himself heavily injured. Josh after dealing with Crock got on the run carrying Sean. Without Sean and Josh, the heroes were hardly able to hold their own against the villains. Josh laid Sean next to the river under the bridge. “Welcome back,” said Sean. Sean told his last breath with a smile on his face. Josh didn’t have much time to grieve as a group of battered heroes traced Sean’s signal and found Josh with the dead Sean. They do not trust Josh, questioned him and wanted explanation. Josh didn’t help as he himself just had an emotional breakdown and didn’t care or like the heroes anyway. Josh told them to back off from his brother and a few of the heroes saw the resemblance. They took Josh and Sean back to their mother at the small two stories house.

The story ends with the funeral of Sean with the family, friends and heroes in disguise. Josh looks somewhat out of place being very uneasy overflowing with guilt and anger at himself. His mother embraces him while his younger sister was confused and did not know how to deal with his new brother.

The sequel is another specie that talks about Josh trying to fit into the family and going back to school, high school as a 23-25 years old. Josh has to deal with his demons and since he was housed in Sean’s room and basically wear and uses a lot of Sean’s clothes and things, he is being reminded of Sean day in and day out. He has identity crisis and tries to reconnect with the inner Josh. He wanted to make up for everything, to be a good son and brother to his sister but his temperament, bitterness, jealousy, and hatred of himself along with his loneliness in this new world are making a huge challenge for him. Desperate, the heroes try to recruit the reluctant Josh. Finally Josh agrees out of responsibility for Sean’s death, attempts to right himself of wrong and in hope to become what his dad and brother were, heroes. With exception to a few heroes close to Sean and later Josh, half of the heroes are suspicious of Josh and only agrees with the recruitment out of survival.

After several confrontations with villains, another big adjustment for Josh, Josh faced Crock. They become arch-rivals with Crock furious with Josh’s betrayal, while Josh seek revenge for Sean and his lost childhood. They were mostly ended up in draw with both hurting back from fierce battles.

Meanwhile, Josh struggles to deal with people in school and with his family, if there’s a better alternative in getting an education and living a regular life. He spends some time with his grandpa who after falling on a winter day has to move into a nursing home against his will.