It's barely an hour into work and I am already having a fierce battle with sleepliness.

Despite my parents and everybody telling me to lose weight, they aren't quite supportive in the doing. My parents make huge breakfast for me in the morning and make more food than we can consume as a family for dinner. My dad can't eat certain things and does not eat as much as before, my mom just never eat that much, and then my brother is a very picky eater. As an unpicky eater and the only one who has the capacity to eat extra food, I often get picked on to finish the food on the plates. My mom would tell me to "finish" this and that. I would sometimes protested that I already ate a lot of it, make my brother eat them, he's still in puberty and skinny like a cloth hanger. Even when I am full, I am told to drink up the soup, finish the scraps.

And then late at night, mom would order us to eat fruit or something else.

While eating with others, because of my comparative size against other, I am often marked as the "hungry person" who hasn't had enough so people would pile food on my bowl. I really appreciate their kindness but being comparatively big doesn't mean that I don't get full. Again, just like at home, I am always offered to finish the dishes. It's a really bad cycle that repeat itself over and over again .

I must say the lunch bufffet was rather cheap and the groomsmen and bridesmaids were somewhat illy treated. Of course, we expected ourselves to work hard that day and offered our heart and effort, yet the groomsmen and bridesmaids were overlooked. We weren't assigned seats for us at the buffet, we didn't have designated tables or seats. Other than the siblings, we just had to do with finding an empty seat at the banquet and we weren't formally introduced, and i think especially the groomsmen were basically out of the loops with the decision-making (which isn't bad in itself) but was made to work. Also, during the planning meeting, food wasn't provided. I could not help with the problem of being cheap. A lot of basic hospitality and respect just wasn't there. I wonder if there was any thanks publicly made. Of course everybody involved in the wedding know, but I can't help but feel a little disrespected. We weren't formally told of dinner or gathering after the whole ordeal. I think some were invited but I think every groomsmen and bridesmaids should be informed, maybe just with a dinner of thanks. There was just something missing. I think the problem was with the organization, especially on the grooms' side. Nothing was really sure for the groom. Plans were changed without much discussion with the groom's side and with the groomsmen, we were kept in the dark most of the time. We did our best and ignored how our inputs and concerns were a non-issue to the planning party (even though we are an important part of the wedding party). More importantly, the best man was out of touch, disconnected, don't know the rest of us, only arrived the night before, and was not a warm and friendly guy to begin with. Maybe he was too young and overwhelmed. But there are things that best man is suppose to do. The best man is suppose to lead the other groomsmen. There was none of that.
I can't help but feel that we were taken advantage of and weren't thought of highly enough, especially on the groomsmen side. There was something missing in the wedding and I must say that it was the heart. I tried to compare it with my cousin Toby's wedding which was more like a grand celebration. There was a big heart at Toby's wedding, he was celebrating with everybody. It wasn't just about looks, it was also about the guests. The new couple really went out of their way to greet and make everyone of the guests feel welcomed, taking the time to shake everybody's hands at the end of the wedding.

She appeared so much more matured after graduation. Some of it has to do with the slight upgrade in the clothes she wear and the other probably due to how she seems less girly now.

After we found out that Travis was coming to Hong Kong, my brother had been somewhat nagging me to go see them with him with me paying also for his ticket. At first I had a little urge to do so, but then I looked at the ticket price which was around $450. It's not very expensive but it's not cheap either. And I don't like all the songs of Travis, if I was high on Travis, then I would, but not now. If it was timed better like during the release of the invisible band, then maybe I would have got the tickets. So too bad.