i had a song in my head and sang to myself softly while i was on the MTR (subway) but then i forgot about it when i met a fellow co-worker and started a conversation.

it was a good song with a simple but subtle melody. a bit artsy yet popular in style.

yesterday was the first class of the video course i signed up for. i think of it as more of a video workshop with the 'Tang house' as our subject. it was good and i enjoyed it, more than the other course i took almost a year ago with CUHK which cost over 20 times more. the CUHK one was basically a lot of lecture and little application. the learning process here at this class is more interactive and we already get to shot and experiment on the very first day of class. and it's super cheap, or you can say super valued.

i figured that the course is pretty low-budget to begin with. it doesn't provide computer or any equipment (CUHK has computer but we hardly used them, such a waste of resources) and class took place at government facility (which is free for July and August I think) which is very economic. the only cost is really for the teacher who actually uses most of his own equipment (ibook, speakers). Little Fat is his name. He seemed to enjoy himself and this is probably a piece of cake for him because as he revealed later, it was his first time teaching. It didn't seem like it, he was very natural and didn't show any nervousness. he's a video editor and he showed us one of the MV he edited.

it was a little like back at UCR video art classes where we were shown different videos, the exception is that we didn't have to watch any long movies in this course. Little Fat is a likable person and he asked me if i edit video too. well i do, but not professionally. i told him that i studied fine art and like playing with video.

i think i enjoyed it coz in one part, i like our discussion on video especially since i haven't done that in such a long while, it's very refreshing; i get to shot finally and get some kind of (minimum) critique and praises; i was doing something that i like and etc...

today, i realize that not too many people get to do what they want to. job and career wise, and in life. doing what you like as you job and accomplishing your goals is a rarity.

la la la

it's the day and age when all my friends (not really) seem to be getting marry and stuff. Really crazy. Well, like people at the same age as I, or even younger are getting marry.

A few days ago, I found out that my first crush is getting marry (she's been dating for ... 5 years?) but it just ring a bell. And her younger sister is probably going to get marry next year. It's like ... what? Not really, but it's just woah, it's this time of age when people at my age are getting marry.

Nothing wrong with getting marry, but it's just that i can't believe we are at this day and age. Fantastic for them. For me it's really amazing, they decided that they wanna spend every single day living together, they found someone they wanna spend the rest of their lives with. that's incredible to me. and i don't know how they do that. how do these things work?

and then i kind of think about me...humm, am i kind of behind in the game? (totally) but I just don't see it coming. How do they get to this point. I am still wondering at what i m doing here. and they are getting marry. when do you get marry?

i found out this week that two couples i know of broke up...

people said I don't look my age, i definitely don't act my age...they think i m like...3-5 years younger than i m. maybe i look young. or i just have great skin. maybe because I act like kid and am playful. although i really really envy the younger people.

college students or just people young than i are just really really cute, especially the girls. i mean, they are just somewhat more innocent and naive and direct. kind of miss that in older people.

i think because i have passed puberty that it's hard, really hard to get those melting into people sort of falling in love. everything is kind of been processed, less raw emotion and feeling for others. in high school, you just fall in love with everybody. her, her and her...don't get that nowadays. no. might be easier to be nice to people but harder, much harder to like fall in love. coz there's so much thinking beforehand...like job, money, career, match up, education, practicality and etc... by the time i finish run down the list...the feeling is gone already. or maybe i m just chicken.

how do you fall in love? how do you know that this person is the one you to spend the rest of your life with? you need to meet a lot of people. needle in the sea.

I am pretty sure I don't belong to an office desk.

only when it's fun at least.

民主

民主

民主

民主

民主

24 °C in late June

Isn’t it amazing, it’s 24 °C in late June, in Hong Kong. A subtropical region. Thanks to the rain. I didn’t sweat at all walking to work (probably coz I wasn’t in a hurry and didn’t speed over 1 mph).

Georgia is my new favorite font,
 especially when Italicized. 
It’s just so classy and romantic
in an elegant and respectful
way. It’s kind of like really sexy
 but not slutty and it demands
 respect. There’s some character
 to it other than just its curve
and outward appearance. It has
 integrity. 

Hot tea. 

I wanted a cup of tea, and I
want it to be cozy and very
warm but not hot, yet not cool.
I wanted it to bring me warmth. I wanted to drink it in a mouth full, so it can’t be too warm or hot. So, at the end, I just didn’t know what I want. I wanted the tea to be refreshing yet warm and cozy. Can you have that in a single cup of tea? I have no idea. 

Now, the cup of tea bites my upper lip with its hotness, causes a hot sensation on the tip of my tongue and brings warmth into my throat. It’s not perfect and it’s not refreshing, but it’s good enough for now as oxygen is being emptied at the back of my head.

my colleague can be weird at time, one of them found a funny large printed page in their pile which she just received from Debbie and asked if it's mine (my chapter that is), i said it's theme B coz at first look it just looked a bit strange and different and it said something about SE Asia. She corrected me (rightly so), so i looked at it again and realized that it is from the previous version of the textbook, no wonder the fonts and heading are all funny.

i took her that and she turned around, raised her eyebrows, winked and skimmed her eyes at me several times. I was confused. she then said, "yeah right." it was a scary moment. i have no idea what she meant by that.

what were the eyebrow raising, winking and skimming of the eyes about? it was scary, seeing so much facial expression at once.

i felt like as if i m at fault. when all that was was a piece of paper mistakenly put into her pile. i can't connect with her.

summer is here...

translating...one of the most boring aspect of my work... bores me to... death.

it's at time like these that my mind begins to wander off and drift into dreams.

I wondered why I don’t get the treatment, at least not yet. I am like behind of at least one of my assignments. Has she given up on me already, or am I just hopeless? Or, maybe she finds me unresponsive so…why the waste of breath?

I did after lunch haha.

Been having gas the whole day…don’t know why. What did I eat yesterday? Hardly any beans. Had several little soft dumps today so far.

political passiveness at work

At where I work, all of my colleagues around me are pretty well educated. All of them have at least a bachelor's degree from respectable colleges in Hong Kong and around the world. Most of them are well read. Some of us have attained master degrees yet most my colleagues are either naive, uninterested or unaware of current affairs, world politics and etc...

I formulated few excuse for my colleagues:
-Most of my colleagues are females, who are generally less interested in politics than men.
-I work in a Chinese company, and under the all powerful Beijing government, we should not express our political views too loudly for job security.

But actually, when asked, my colleagues do have some political stands even if some of them might be flawed.

Another thing i noticed from my Hong Kong colleagues is that they are somewhat impatient with movies and literatures (especially in English) with an attitude that resembles lackluster American teenagers. Of course, my Hong Kong colleagues have the knowledge to appreciate some meaningful but long movies, and should have a adequate literacy level to understand and make literature an enjoyable recreational past time, but no too many of them do that.

For many of us who grew up elsewhere, especially in my generation or older, we read for pleasure from time to time, and many of us would happily spend a day doing nothing but reading. that would only be possible for people 40's or over here. People in the 20s don't do that in Hong Kong. Okay, except those romance and martial art novels for youth.

secret

I have a secret to tell you. I don’t really do work here and haven’t been for the past week. What I have been doing is writing, listening to music, dozing off, dreaming, daydreaming, procrastinating, getting mild headache, puking in my mouth, falling asleep, planning on doing something else, eating crackers and other occasional snacks, web-surfing, going to the bathroom for all kind of reasons, washing my face over and over with cold water, checking my colleagues out, writing stories, blogging, reading news, following the socceroos and other football news, playing fantasy basketball, making handicrafts with my stationary, decorating my business card with highlighters, taking of my shoes and putting them on, and yes, did I mention getting myself sick of work?

什麼是政治助理?

什麼是政治助理?

香港依家年過百萬的高薪人仕越來越小, 衹有政府才有能力支付, 曾 Sir 係用心良苦, 巧立名目,用特高薪請班大部份懷才不遇的高資歷而薪金低的人仕做副局長及政治助理, 實質係做大內群英,可能是大內剎手還末定, 每位都是特首用來分佈在各部們的針孔照相機, 既可提高政府管治能力, 補各局長不足, 又可提高香港競爭力. 更可以有多些高薪人仕出來高消費.

最重要：留意下有無年薪過（百萬）庸官。
持著（曾氏令牌）去叫COCO之類，300元之平價雞！
又好似牙差級（曾Sir）食免費雞？
沖天炮包380元（二拉）


蔭權、增加副局長及政治助理！

表面上好似平平無奇！！！！

實際有如希特勒當年設立的蓋世太保？

手持上方保劍，先斬後奏？

在官員之間廣佈線眼，抄下（上司及下屬）遺規的事！

例如背後罵（政治蠢材）（政治零旦）

或者對住曾氏相片射尿！知如此類？？等等。

亦等如文革其間之（紅豆兵）、說你有罪就有罪？

曾蔭權說：副局長及政治助理！不是公務員？

薪俸亦是曾蔭權說：幾多就幾多？？？

政治助理原意只係政府入的政務官

主要輔助政策局局主同副局長決策
佢地係政務官的一分子, 所以不是公務員
會因為政治缺失而被特首免職
相對地, 亦由特首任免

由於政治助理不是一個經詳細規劃下產生的position
所以權責同常任祕書長同高級公務員仍未好清楚

以上都係政治助理職責的官方解釋
不過佢地是否有政治目的(如成為特首耳目, 親信)就唔知
不過一般相信有
而且佢地任免都由特首決定
好大可能會受特首控制

行政長官委任政治助理（附圖）
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　　行政長官曾蔭權今日（五月二十二日）委任九位人士成為特區政府的首批政治助理。

　　曾蔭權讚許這一批新委任人士有熱誠和有承擔。他有信心政治助理能夠協助局長及副局長，配合高度專業的公務員隊伍更好地服務香港。

　　政治助理是在問責制下按非公務員條款獲委任，任期至二○一二年六月三十日。政府會在適當時候公布其餘副局長和政治助理的人選。

　　九名獲委任人士名單如下：

＊　財政司司長政治助理葉根銓；

＊　發展局局長政治助理張文韜；

＊　教育局局長政治助理楊哲安；

＊　環境局局長政治助理蔡少綿；

＊　財經事務及庫務局局長政治助理伍潔鏇；

＊　食物及缳生局局長政治助理陳智遠；

＊　民政事務局局長政治助理徐英偉；

＊　勞工及福利局局長政治助理莫宜端；及

＊　保安局局長政治助理盧奕基。

　　他們的簡歷如下：

葉根銓
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　　葉先生現年三十八歲，獲香港大學社會科學學士。

　　葉先生於二○○七年加入香港賽馬會，現職公共事務經理（對外事務）。他活躍於傳媒評論。葉先生於一九九二至二○○七年期間，分別在多份本港主要報章擔任編輯及主筆，並曾撰寫多本有關傳媒及政治評論的著作。

張文韜
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　　張先生現年四十六歲，獲加拿大西安大略大學及英國史丹福郡大學法律學位，現為執業大律師。

　　張先生於二○○二年加入民建聯，現為民建聯深水支部主席。他於二○○○至○三年及二○○五至○七年擔任深水區議員。張先生同時為古物古蹟委員會、深水滅罪委員會及政府多個上訴委員會成員。

楊哲安
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　　楊先生現年三十二歲，獲英國牛津大學文學士及倫敦大學倫敦政治經濟學院理學碩士。

　　楊先生現於物流公司任職高級經理。他自二○○三年起成為自由黨成員，並於二○○六年擔任該黨港島區交通事務關注組和青年及婦女事務關注組成員。

蔡少綿
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　　蔡女士現年三十七歲，她在香港浸會大學取得傳理學士學位，並獲倫敦大學倫敦政治經濟學院國際關係碩士。

　　蔡女士於二○○七年加入香港迪士尼樂園，現職政府事務總監。她於一九九八至二○○四年出任政務主任職系，並曾兩度服務於南華早報，在加入香港迪士尼樂園前為該報編輯。

伍潔鏇
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　　伍女士現年三十四歲，獲英國劍橋大學法律學士、倫敦法律學院法律實務文憑證書，以及劍橋大學文學法律碩士。她於一九九八及一九九九年分別在英國及香港取得律師資格。

　　伍女士於二○○五年加入香港美林證眞，現為該公司法律部門總監。她曾服務於倫敦及香港的年利達律師事務所，並曾為曾蔭權競選行政長官時擔任監察主任。

陳智遠
───

　　陳先生現年二十八歲，在香港大學取得法律學士及法學專業證書，並獲香港中文大學哲學碩士及倫敦大學倫敦政治經濟學院比較政治碩士。

　　陳先生現職城市大學亞洲管治研究中心高級研究助理、香港中文大學政治與行政學系兼職講師，以及香港電台的客席主持兼評論員。

　　陳先生為Roundtable Group創會成員。


徐英偉
───

　　徐先生現年三十一歲，獲加拿大渥太華大學社會科學學士。他現正修讀曼徹斯特大學的工商管理碩士課程。

　　徐先生現於恆生銀行任職投資事務經理，之前曾服務加拿大的匯豐銀行、滿地可銀行、美林證眞及美國運通銀行。

　　他於二○○六年加入民建聯，並於二○○七年獲選為青年民建聯副主席。

莫宜端
───

　　莫女士現年三十五歲，她獲倫敦大學倫敦政治經濟學院國際關係學士及倫敦大學亞非學院文學碩士。她現正修讀北京清華大學博士課程。

　　莫女士在智經研究中心擔任高級經理，並就社會議題撰寫評論文章。她曾任無線電視高級記者、香港電台新聞節目編導、香港政策研究所研究經理及張炳良議員助理。她現為三十會核心成員及香港可持續發展公民委員會委員。

盧奕基
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　　盧先生現年五十五歲，他獲亞洲（澳門）國際公開大學工商管理碩士，以及英國劍橋大學應用犯罪學及警務碩士。
　　
　　他於一九七六年加入香港警隊任職見習督察，今年二月退休前為助理警務處處長，出任西九龍總區指揮官。

完

２００８年５月２２日（星期四）
香港時間１６時４６分

i think just need a nice good vacation. i have been having slight headache for the past 2 to 3 weeks. It might be something to do with the long hours in front of the computer, lack of sleep, stress etc...

i need to be better rested. I think i need 8 hours of sleep. have a d0-nothing day, something like that.

and i just can't stay awake at work, my mind would drift off, totally forgetting what i m suppose to do, and then i would doze off. i washed my face 4 times over yesterday. i m being bored out of my wits. i should try to eat smaller meals and do some exercise.

i hate it how they don't let me kick the ball around anymore at around the complex.

i just puked a little in my mouth...i m really sick.

As I am contemplating on furthering my studies, several brothers at church are leaving to study in the US the coming academic year. One of them is going to be exchange students for a term in Michigan. One is going to Alabama for a year to get his master in social work.  

As for me, I am still thinking. Film (2 years), counseling (3 years) or a master in humanities like Peace and Conflict Studies, Asian Studies…(1-2 years). 

Or should I just take a year off away from everybody to get myself together and figure myself out? I know of some friends who did that, like took a year to teach English in Xian, serviced in Thailand for a year, took a trip to the Silk Road alone, traveled around the world for a year and etc… 

I was actually thinking of doing that last year, but I got derailed thanks to my feeble mind. I didn’t get to do what I wanted to do last year. I was a bit embarrassed about it. I am always embarrassed about things I wanted to do and only tell strangers about my dreams. It’s a bit nuts. How can I make other believe in me when I can’t even say what I want. It’s true, I messed up my chances several times because I was either afraid, scare or lazy.

I need to give it up to my colleagues for having great memories and stamina at this really grinding job. My brain has been shutting itself off every 15 minutes or so. There should be more fun in editing. My head is just drifting. It’s probably just this boring assignment, which I am stuck in with now. Suppose men are not supposed to be in this type of work. This very mechanical work sitting on a desk. Of course, men do mechanical work but not at a desk. I think I will be planning to explore my career option and then my academic prospect…starting today. (It had started for a long time already, I just need to make a decision).

a day after 以諾好友營2008 i feel refreshed. i slept at around 12:35pm last night and woke up around 7:15am today. A little more than 6 hours of sleep. but i woke up less tire than usual. I actually felt like i had maybe 7 hours of sleep.

That pressure on the two sides of my head had gone pretty much. and i came to work feeling less tire and stressed.

However about 20 minutes since the above sentence, i am feeling a bit sleepy and i was getting motion sickness from my superior's lengthly instruction on my up coming assignment.